Bipolar and PMDD

I’ve been reading a lot about PMDD a lot lately. It stands for Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (sorry to all the guys reading this). Every month, when I get PMS, my bipolar gets out of hand. I begin to worry, to cycle, to feel terribly insecure, to get this fluttery feeling of anxiety in stomach, but most of all, I become suspicious and even a little paranoid. I know it’s the bipolar making me feel that way, but I still can’t help it. I hate the feelings of suspicion most of all. I begin to think that my husband is tricking me. I begin to think that my colleagues hate me. I worry about everything– money, love, my marriage, my work. I often also have trouble sleeping through the night, or I have nightmares, or I wake up in the middle of a cycle.

I have trouble going to work. I hate being alone. I am constantly scared.

But then I seem to have three weeks of euthymia (at least lately). My husband, my therapist, my mom, my doctor, they all remind me that it’s temporary and will go away after a few days. But I hate it.

But, spring is coming and I need to be prepared. I start a new job next week and I really want to make a great impression. I am hoping it is less stressful and that my much-shortened commute will decrease my stress, although I am taking a major pay  cut.

3 thoughts on “Bipolar and PMDD

  1. When my bipolar isn’t well controlled PMS is absolutely vicious for me. I use my period tracker so I can check, otherwise I don’t know. I literally turn into a fire breathing dragon – it is relieving to hear I’m not the only one with this struggle. x


  2. Thank you for sharing you thoughts and personal experiences with this – Its does sound like PMDD, I have it too. I hope you are feeling better now and your job is going well xxx


  3. I also have PMDD and Bipolar disorder. I have been off work for nearly a month now trying to get myself straight and I am so afraid to even go back. I am in therapy and working on myself and my issues but unless they have been through it they can never understand it.


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